3/25/13
Updated 11/26/14 to add in some of the Retrial testimony.
This is the timeline. It is a work in progress.
Please keep checking this post. I will update when I get time. I am trying to get all the text and diary entries on here in order. It a huge clusterf*ck!
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| Somebody will probably marry me even though I'm in jail! |
I want you to understand what I think of you. I want you understand how evil I think you are. You are the worst thing that ever happened to me.
You are a sociopath. You only cry for yourself. You have never cared out me, and you have betrayed me worse than any example I could conjure you are sick and you have scammed me.
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| Poor Jodi. Always the bridesmaid, but never the bride. This is her friend Patty. |
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| Please don't tell me you forgot who Patty was? She's sitting on the left. Wooden spoon is on the right! They are showing the love and joy in court! |
Early 2000
Jodi moves in with Matt
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| This is Matt! |
" I was Jodi’s boyfriend for around two years and in that time, she wouldn’t so much as squish a bug. I caught her on many occasions, fishing bugs out of the tub, so they wouldn’t get washed down the drain. She had this crazy neurotic cat, that would flip out and attack her for no reason and she didn’t so much as swat it. Jodi is NOT a violent person!
When we ended our relationship, I was living and working at a distance. During that period, I began spending time with a colleague. One of my douche bag coworkers decided to “inform” her. There was lots of crying, many talks and a few letters. She was NEVER VIOLENT in any way. We remained friends and since then, she had a few other relationships ending with Travis. I personally know the man she was with before Travis. He and Jodi maintained a friendly relationship after they parted. He also had NO issues with violence. So why now? What changed?
Before Jodi was arrested we would talk on a regular basis. I am one of her longest lasting friends and former lovers. I could be a important character witness. At one point, I asked Jodi to leave me out of this situation, so as not draw attention to myself or my new family and since then, she has.
Her life is on the line. She could get the death penalty. Yet she’s made it a point not to involve me.
Why? Because I asked her not to….
That is the kind of person Jodi is!”
2003
Jan 03- Jodi started dating Darryl
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| This is OG! |
2005
Jodi and OG (Darryl) buy a house
2006
May 2006- Darryl said on the stand that Jodi said no more cussing.
June 2006- Jodi's breast surgery
Aug 26, 2006 diary entry- half a page is torn out. Alyce seen other diary entries that were torn out. Travis told her to tear the pages out. Jodi never gives details of Travis abusing her.(not sure why this important other than the fact Jodi didn't know Travis yet)
Sept 2006
Sept 06-Jodi and Travis meet in Las Vegas (hung out Fri, Sat, and Sunday)
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| Jodi and Travis |
Sept 06-Jodi broke up with OG the Thursday after meeting Travis. This is said in the defense's opening statement.
Sept 06- Met up with Travis Wed and spent the night at the Hughes that Sat.
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| Sky Hughes |
Fall of 2006-This is when Darryl said on the stand that Jodi started to change.
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| The foreclosure |
October 2006
Oct 06- Jodi babysat Travis' dog and she meet Deanne at Travis' house
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| Travis and Deanne |
Oct 2006- Jodi's own words in the police interview: 21:56
JA: And one time we just met in Ehrenberg when I went to southern California so we could just rent a hotel room and make out the whole weekend, and umm…whatever, but we drove to go see a movie and there was this lady (Jodi crying) standing on the side. He pulled over in his BMW and rolls down his window and says, “Are you hungry?” and she said, “Yeah,” so we turned around and went to the Wendy’s right next to the hotel and he got her this triple decker and the biggie fries or whatever it’s called and the biggest drink they had and gave it to her. (Jodi crying)http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=nzt4clYkmPQ
Nov 2006
Nov 11, 06-Travis sent Jodi pictures of his dong.(or so she says)
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| Dong |
Nov 06- Jodi said on the stand that she had a dr's appt in Pasadena. She met up with Abe. Later that same day, she met up with John Dixson for a date. They hugged and watched movies (Jodi said this on her 2nd day on the stand)
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| John Dixson |
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| Abe and Jodi |
Nov 26, 06- Travis baptized Jodi and they had anal afterwards
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| Travis and Jodi |
Dec 2006
Dec 2006- This is when Darryl said that Jodi moved out.
2007
Jan 2007
Jan 2007- Alice said on the stand that Travis and Dan surprised Jodi by just showing up at her house. Later on they went to the Hughes' house.
Jan 2007- Email Jodi sent to Travis telling asking Travis about the status of their relationship. Alice testified that Jodi said in the email that she didn't have a lot of experience with men and dating around.
Jan 2007- EX 560- Alice testified that the Hughes' sent this email to Jodi telling her she should move on from Travis and that he was no good with women. (They did not show this EX in court)
Feb 2007
Feb 1-2, 07- Jodi said that she showed up at Travis' house at 3am in the morning. He was surprised, but happy to see her. They just hung out and watched movies. She said this her 2nd day on the stand with Nurmi.
Feb 2, 07- Jodi and Travis started dating (or became official boyfriend and girlfriend)
Feb 7, 2007- EX563- Email. Jodi and Travis talked, and bonded. They cleared things up. (Alice said this on 4/2/13)
Feb 14, 2007- Jodi wrote Travis an email.
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| EX 623 |
EX 623 2/14/07
Feb 14, 07-Travis sent Jodi the valentine's underwear, shirt, Spiderman stuff. (or so Jodi says. This picture was taken by Jodi on July 12, 2008, 3 days before she was arrested)
Wed Feb 14, 2007 16:58
Travis,
I'm sorry that the last few days have bee so frustrating for you. I wish I could have offered you more consolation over the phone. I guess I was just at a little bit of a loss for words. And perhaps, a little bit intimidated, not necessarily because of how angry you were, but because I wasn't sure how you would react to me trying to comfort you. I compare it to my own experiences, and I know that sometimes, I don't want to hear it, I just want to yell and scream and vent (yes, I do on very rare occasions), and go through the motions until the situation plays itself out. Other times, I need comforting and to be told that every is OK. I wasn't sure exactly what you were needing, so I just listened, and as the conversation evolved, my heart filled with compassion for you.
However, you already know the Secret. I don't need to remind you. But you are so powerful, and you can turn this situation around at anytime. I found out, much to my regret, that my anger is very destructive. I've never beaten up anybody over it, but I've kicked holes in walls, kicked down doors, smashed windows, broken things. It hurts people and it hurts me. It lowers my vibration and attracts unwanted lower-vibrational situation and people into my life. So I strive every day to "be the bigger person" and be a living example and Choose the right and see everything through a filter of love. But it doesn't always work that way! I mess up. Sometimes I forget who I am. But I will never stop striving to be Christ-like as much as I possibly can.
This morning, I woke up feeling awful. I called Darryl (only because I had to give him the phone number to our mortgage lender) and he said, "hey, I was just going to call you. Any change in your situation?" And that's all he had to say. I lost it. (missing a small piece right here)
house ,which is quickly spreading like cancer throughout other areas of my finances, and probably his, too. And I don't want to focus on that, therefore, I haven't wanted to talk to Darryl lately. Maybe you don't need to know any of this, but I guess I'm telling you so you know it hasn't been a great day for me either.
But there is one cool part to that story. After we hung up, I continued to cry for a few minutes. I was still in bed, still in my pajamas, feeling miserable and hopeless. And then suddenly a thought of you popped into my mind. It took me a second (really, only 1 second), and I ceased to cry, and I began to feel wonderful! I think I probably smiled! I remembered talking to you last night. I remembered your stirring voice. I remembered how freakin' lucky I am that you are in my life! I think that those thoughts are literally what motivated me to get out of bed this morning and face the day. And although it hasn't been the best day that I've had this week, it can only mean that it gets better from here! I've still got 4 more days left this week, and so do you!
If I had a magic wand and could change anything about today right now, I would use it to make your day brighter and 300% better. But just know that your problems and trials are making you better and stronger by the minute. It may be hard to imagine that (only because you are already so incredible!), but I can see it and I can envision it. Just keep breathing and keep stepping. We are human, we all falter, But everything is still prefect. Heavenly Father doesn't make mistakes. This world is our classroom, and we are the students. The people and situations we bring into our experiences are like our teachers. Today's lesson has been difficult and was not fun! But the general idea is that once we learn the lessons inherent in the situation, we don't have to repeat them anymore! When you can find it in yourself to give thanks for the lessons, do it.
OK, I'm going to go now before you start calling me Esther Hicks. I might otherwise take it as a compliment, but coming from you, I know it wouldn't be. (smiley face)
And I hope this makes you feel better: Just remember that no matter how ugly it gets, I'm only a phone call away. I am ALWAYS here for you. YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!! AND YOU ALWAYS WILL!
Happy Valentine's Day, Baby
Jodi
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| Underwear and Shirt |
Feb 18, 2007- Jodi sent Abe that email.
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| Email to Abe |
Feb 18, 2007
Hi Abe I'm writing you for a few reasons. Let me get the more trivial ones out of the way first. I tried reaching you by phone during the week without any luck. Probably because I've been calling at ridiculous hours of the night after I'm off work. Like the last three months, I find myself once again near the end of the billing cycle of my cell phone, out of minutes, and paying through the teeth to talk on the phone during daylight hours. But I digress. The reason I've been trying to reach you is to let you know that I was listening to the online version of "Never Before never again" at freedomvideos.com (?) and some thoughful jerk laced a voice over on Mr. Stonecipher toward the end of the video. He says "there has never been a better time or a better opportunity than right now at Pre-Paid Loser" I am not joking. That's what you hear. If you want to hear it for yourself, go the video. It's about 11 minutes and 45 seconds into it. Just thought I would make you aware of that, since you use that on occasion for your prospects.
The other, and more important reason that I am writing to you is regarding our friendship. You have been a wonderful source of information on many levels and I appreciate your insight and perspective. I'm glad that we met, and I'm glad we are friends. But after considering a few aspects of our friendship, such as the conversation we had the other night revisiting the dream you had to the hug we exchanged at the last AFT in Anaheim. I think we should re-think our conduct toward each other. I know that between you and me those things are simply gestures of a functioning friendship between a couple of single individuals. Up until recently I've considered myself single, and I never would have considered it to be inappropriate or even given it a second thought. Although I'm not married and I'm not Travis' girlfriend.
From now going forward I feel that you and I should keep a friendly distance. I'm certainly not suggesting that we ignore each other, but even something as simple as a hug can be misconstrued as something it is not. You and I and everyone are hugging everyone else in this business. We are like a big family. So it may seem somewhat like a foreign request on my part, but you're a pretty savvy guy, so I know you'll understand.
I'm aware that you like me, and you've made that pretty clear. I'm flattered by that. I hesitate to tell you all of this only because I am reminded of the stories you've shared with me about women taking it the wrong way (like when you prospect them, for example). Your internal dialogue is less than friendly ("Look, lady. I didn't ask and I'm not interested in you anyway!") So in considering that, please know that I'm not assuming that you're still pursuing me or that you see me as some kind of prize that you're striving (??) for. We rarely talk outside of PPL events, and I am fully aware that you have a life completely outside the realm of "Jodi" which involves a blossoming business, a large social circle and network of people, and most likely many other female interest as well.
You already know that I'm seeing Travis. I've never divulged many details about our relationship simply because I consider certain details to be sacred and private, and should be kept between him and I anyway. I know I've told you that we are not in a committed relationship, but regardless of our status, I care so deeply about his. I often ask myself, how would Travis feel about this? Or, how I would I feel if Travis were doing what I'm doing right now with someone else? In fact, this reasoning has been a compelling force behind all of my actions, decisions and conduct as of late.
Now I'm sure you're already aware of this, but when we hugged at the Grove a few weeks ago, my intention was nothing more than to warmly greet a friend and business associate. But I've since given this further thought and I've asked myself, would I have acted the same if Travis were there that day? In truth, I would not have. And this leads me to question my own character. I don't want to be inconsistent, especially not when it involves something and someone that is so important to me. Granted, human behavior is often modified and adjusted under various circumstances. Everyone does this, it is natural. But at this point, none of that matters to me. What matters to me is how that which I am accountable for would make Travis feel. I care more about him than I ever have. His happiness is of cardinal significance to me, and his feelings and opinions I value more greatly than gold.
I didn't write this email to expound upon my secret worship-Travis-agenda. I only wanted to clear a few things up, if not for you, then for myself. For I'm sure you already "get" all of this anyway. But at least now I've said it, and I can rest easier knowing that we are on the same page about things. I think you're a great person who's never had a single bad intention toward me, and I appreciate all of the time you've taken to impart to me your knowledge, perspectives, and experiences. I will certainly see you around at events, to which you bring a lively energy.Take care until then, Jodi
Mar 2007
Mar 07-Jodi met Travis' grandmother
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| Travis and his grandmother! |
April 2007
April 07- Jodi tells JM that she took a trip with Dan, Desi, and Travis.
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| Desi, Dan, Jodi, & Travis |
JA: Yeah, ‘cos he was very resistant to prayer … with me…I mean, I think (unintelligible) I feel it may be because we were driving away the Spirit constantly, umm…or maybe he felt that by inviting the Spirit he would feel guilty about later on in the evening or… I don’t know what the deal was…or the excuse he used was because I’m a convert I need more practice saying prayers. He was like…so I’d say, Would you say a prayer? He’s like, Why don’t you say a prayer? I’m like, Why don’t you say a prayer? Why don’t you say a prayer? So we’d go back and forth, and… I don’t know…until… I don’t know… it was just… one time when I was on the trip to Havasupai we were all getting on the road and I think... it was with Dan Freeman and his sister, Desiree, and they were all like, “Jodi, will you say a prayer?” and I said, “Sure” and Travis was like… (giggles)… anyway… I didn’t want to argue with them so… umm…anyway, what was I saying? http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=vE_Ue5rF8QM
May 2007
May 10, 2007- Puss sex. Jodi stopped Travis b/c she thought it was a sin, and she didn't want to do it. Travis pushed her head down, and she had oral sex with him. (Jodi said on the stand that they had full puss sex on this day) but now Alice says Jodi said NO.(Alice said this 4/2/13)
May 07- Jodi moved back to staff housing. Matt shared housing with her.
May 07- Jodi and Travis had full puss sex
May 07- Jodi said Travis had road rage coming back from Disneyland. Jodi told Nurmi this on Day 1 of recross.
Summer 2007- Jodi and Travis flew to NY to see more Mormon historic sites. (Jodi said on the stand 2/11/13)
June 2007
June 5, 2007- EX 564- Jodi talks about listening to Travis' testimony about his father. Jodi was touched. That's why she was in love with him. (This EX is not shown in court. 4/2/13)
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| Travis and his dad. Notice the Spidey underwear?? |
June 24, 07- EX 566- diary entry about law of attraction and God. (EX not shown 4/2/13)
June 2007. Jodi confessed that she looked at Travis' text messages. Numerous sexual text messages. Jodi texted one of the women and said "Jodi cuddling with Travis" to the other woman. Jodi still wants her trip so she doesn't bring it up until after the trip. (Said by Alice on 4/2/13)
June 29, 07- When Jodi says her and Travis broke up.
June 2007- Palin says during opening statements that Travis sent Jodi a poem basically apologizing for his behavior (cheating on her)
July 2007
July 07- Jodi says she let Travis take sexual pictures of her.
July 07- Defense said in opening statements Jodi flew out to see Travis and this is when he talks to her about how he wants her to move to Mesa.
July 07- Lisa said on the stand her and Travis started to date until July 07-Feb 08.
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| Lisa |
July 07- Jodi moved to Mesa
July 9- Jodi's birthday
July 27, 2007- EX 567- diary- it's about trust. Jodi looks at his text and Travis continues to see other women. Alice said Travis is providing no reason to trust. Jodi feels stupid. Jodi blames herself.(Ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
July 27, 2007-EX 568- Email from Sky to Travis- Sky is saying she's sorry she can't loan Travis $4000 (not shown in court 4/2/13)
July 28- Travis' birthday
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| The message Jodi left on Travis' myspace wall! |
August 2007
Aug 2, 2007- EX 569- diary entry- Jodi loves Travis a lot. She thought he was great and she was hanging on to that (Ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
August 13, 2007- EX 570- Diary entry- Jodi is suspicious when Travis is kind to her. Jodi starts out saying Travis sent her a nice text message. Jodi is becoming "Numb" about how she feels about Travis. (ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
Aug 17, 2007- EX 571- Diary entry- a sexual experience Jodi and Travis had. The have puss sex for the first time
( May 10 is the first time the have puss sex) Travis leaves after the sex. Jodi doesn't feel ashamed, and she feels GREAT. Jodi didn't mind committing a sin. Jodi felt good having puss sex with Travis. (Ex not shown in court. 4/2/13)
Aug 2007-Rachel, the girl Jodi moved in with (in Mesa) got married and she had to leave after 2 1/2 weeks.She next moved to a house that was only 10 minutes or less to Travis’ house around August 2007. (Jodi said on the stand 2/11/13)
Aug 07- Travis sends email to Jodi of the french maid outfit.
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| French Maid |
Aug 07- EX 455- Diary entry from Jodi about how much she loves Travis. This was not the whole EX.
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| EX 455 |
EX 455- Sunday 8-26-07 Well, I guess it's a good thing that nobody else reads this, because I write right now that I love Travis Victor Alexander so completely that I don't know another way to be.
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| EX 455 |
Sunday 8-26-07 Well, I guess it's a good thing that nobody else reads this, because I write right now that I love Travis Victor Alexander so completely that I don't know any other way to be. I wish I did, because at time my heart is sick and ? over all that has come to pass. I don't understand this and at times I still have a hard time believing it. He makes me sick and miserable, and he make me feel uplifted and beautiful. ?????? All in all, I shouldn't be wording it as if he "makes" me feel these?? all ? from w/in JAA
Aug 07- Jodi was peeking in Travis window and seen him kissing another girl (or so she says) It's mentioned on Day 2 of JM's cross. Jodi also said she confronted Travis the next day about what she seen.
Aug 19, 2007- Jodi says to JM that she talks to Rachel about sex with Travis.
Aug 07- This is the day Jodi remembers first "shaking" with Travis. Jodi said this to Nurmi on Day 2 of Defense's recross.
Aug 26, 2007- diary entry-Jodi's heart is sick diary entry. (Alyce on 4/10/13)
Aug 26, 07- EX 510- Diary entires where Jodi talks about suicide, then she talks about how she is not going to let Travis say anything mean about Rachel.
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| EX 510 |
EX 510
8-26-07
I just wish I could die. I wish that suicide was a way out. But it is no escape. I wouldn't feel anymore pain though if I could just stop existing and have my consciousness dissolved into nothingness, and my energy recycled into something else useful, for I am of little use to the world right now, through no fault (but) my own.
September 2007
Sept 11, 2007- Email- EX 572- Email from Travis to Matilda Evenson. Travis wanted her to send him pictures and drool over them all day. (ex not shown in court. Hearsay from Alice on 4/2/13)
Sept 13, 2007- Entry- The trip with Dess, Dan, and Travis to Havasupai. Also the date of the backpack fight
Sept 23, 2007-EX 573- Diary entry- Jodi's self blame. Suicide. Jodi thinks she is pathetic and heartsick. Jodi thinks she can make things better in the next 5 years (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Sept 23, 2007- Lisa's email to Travis EX 385- Lisa is uncomfortable with making out with Travis. Travis talks about sex to much and he grabs her butt in public.
Sept 27, 2007- diary- Jodi writes a list. EX 554- 5 things Jodi was grateful for. #1 Travis (Ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
Sept 13, 2007- Entry- The trip with Dess, Dan, and Travis to Havasupai. Also the date of the backpack fight
Sept 23, 2007-EX 573- Diary entry- Jodi's self blame. Suicide. Jodi thinks she is pathetic and heartsick. Jodi thinks she can make things better in the next 5 years (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Sept 23, 2007- Lisa's email to Travis EX 385- Lisa is uncomfortable with making out with Travis. Travis talks about sex to much and he grabs her butt in public.
Sept 27, 2007- diary- Jodi writes a list. EX 554- 5 things Jodi was grateful for. #1 Travis (Ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
October 2007
Oct 6, 2007- EX 576- Diary entry- Jodi writes how Travis says Jodi has became like Deanne Reed. Jodi thought Deanne was crazy and jealous. Travis would make Jodi drop him off around corners (Ex not shown in court 4/2/13)
Oct 7, 2007-dairy entry- EX 576- Motherhood- Jodi is attending a talk on motherhood. Jodi wants kids and wants to be a mother and good wife (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 13, 2007- EX 577- diary entry- trip. Balloon fest. It was a good trip. They ate alligator and frog legs. (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 26, 2007- EX 578- Diary entry- Jodi is getting over Travis. She's quick to fall in love but slow to fall out but she believes she is finished with Travis. Jodi feels like she's becoming a shadow. (Ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 29, 2007- EX 579- Travis wants her to rip out the pages where she talks about him. (4/3/13)
Oct 7, 2007-dairy entry- EX 576- Motherhood- Jodi is attending a talk on motherhood. Jodi wants kids and wants to be a mother and good wife (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 13, 2007- EX 577- diary entry- trip. Balloon fest. It was a good trip. They ate alligator and frog legs. (ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 26, 2007- EX 578- Diary entry- Jodi is getting over Travis. She's quick to fall in love but slow to fall out but she believes she is finished with Travis. Jodi feels like she's becoming a shadow. (Ex not shown 4/2/13)
Oct 29, 2007- EX 579- Travis wants her to rip out the pages where she talks about him. (4/3/13)
Oct 2007- Travis sends Lisa an email reassuring her he broke it off with Jodi (nothing shown in court. Just hearsay from Alice on 4/2/13)
End of October 2007- Alice says Jodi and Travis argue about everything. He shakes her. He pushes her and she falls to her knees. Travis called her family names. Jodi is claiming this is the first physical abuse (4/2/13)
Oct 2007- Jodi and Travis went to New Mexico
End of October 2007- Alice says Jodi and Travis argue about everything. He shakes her. He pushes her and she falls to her knees. Travis called her family names. Jodi is claiming this is the first physical abuse (4/2/13)
Oct 2007- Jodi and Travis went to New Mexico
Fall of 2007- Travis cums on her face and throws candy at her.
Fall of 2007-Jodi answers a jury question saying this is when she found out Travis had a gun.
Nov 2007
Nov 1, 2007-EX 580- Diary- Jodi and Travis made up. Travis came over Jodi's house for a couple of nights. Travis gives her a treat and Jodi gives Travis a treat. (4/3/13)
Nov 5, 07- EX 522- Diary entry where Jodi says she can't say anything bad in her diary.
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| EX 522 |
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| EX 522 |
EX 522
I just bought a set of colored pens. I read the other day that one can tell a lot about a person by their style of handwriting, and even the color of ink they choose. I figure, if there are colors to chose from, why stick w/boring black, which is why I primarily use blue, but tonight, it's purple. Maybe a few different colors, we'll see.
Yeah, actually, I like the dark, rich blue better.
I was reading Chapter 12 of Matthew in the New Testament and something really stood out. Veres 36 & 37: "But I say unto you that every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account there of in the day of judgement. For by thy words, thy shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned."
2 night ago, I called Travis to say goodnight and right on the onset of the conversation, he made a point in making it clear to me that he didn't mean all of those harsh words he said the other day and that he felt really bad. He asked that I forget he ever said any of those. Part of forgiving, in my opinion, is to forget, to let go. It reminds me of the lesson in RS 2 Sunday's ago, w/Jeffery Holland's article "Speak w/ the tongue of Angels"
I find it interesting and tragic and the same time, that once words are spoken, they cannot be unspoken.
Even now, even still, I'm haunted by those words, as another statement just popped into my mind. I won't write it down, however, as I've promised to Travis that I wouldn't do so, as part of forgetting it. I guess writing things down sometimes helps me process complicated, emotionally wrenching situations. But. I totally jive w/ Esther Hicks when she said, "Don't talk about, don't write about it." I love the Gospel. Looooove. JA
Dec 07
Dec 4, 2007- EX 583-diary- Hiding their relationship. Jodi would sneak in to the grandmother's house when Travis was there and leave before anybody got up. Alice says this diary entry goes with another story about another woman he did the same thing to. (4/3/13)
Dec 07- Travis' tires are cut.
Dec 07- Travis tells Jodi to date other people. Jodi's own words to the police:
The reason I remember Feb he had told me in December you know go date other people kind of thing, and so I did, so January 10 that I went on a date with umm…my friend, John, for lunch…http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=gglhBzgDly8
Dec 07- (During Retial 11/17/14)An email between Travis and Lisa EX 385
Lisa tells Travis in the email "we could have messed up Tuesday night, but we didn't. Thanks for being so strong"
Lisa- "You told me to seduce you, so I tried. We touched each other inappropriately and I'm sorry for that."
Lisa- "When we argue your quick to apologize. You don't know how much I wanted to say "yes" to you and just get married."
Dec 8, 07- Lisa receives a letter from "John Doe"
“You are a shameful whore. Your Heavenly Father must be deeply ashamed of the whoredoms you’ve committed with that insidious man. If you let him stay in your bed one more time or even sleep under the same roof as him, you will be giving the appearance of evil. You are driving away the Holy Ghost, and you are wasting your time. You are also compromising your salvation and breaking your baptismal covenants. Of all the commandments to break, committing acts of whoredom is one of the most displeasing in the eyes of the Lord. You cannot be ashamed enough of yourself. You are filthy, and you need to repent and come clean in the eyes of God. Think about your future husband, and how you disrespect not only yourself, but him, as well as the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Is that what you want for yourself? Your future, your salvation, and your posterity is resting on your choices and actions. You are a daughter of God, and you have been a shameful example. Be thou clean, sin no more. Heavenly Father loves you and wants you to make the right choices. I know you are strong enough to choose the right. Your Father in Heaven is pulling for you. Don’t ignore the promptings you receive, because they are vital to your spiritual well-being.”Dec 25, 2007- Alice says Jodi is celebrating with her family in Yreka. Travis buys Jodi a bunch of expensive presents even though his money is tight. Alice says Jodi is starting to pull away from Travis. (4/3/13)
2008
Jan 2008
Jan 1, 2008- Travis sends an I love you text to Jodi. Jodi responds back I love you too. (4/10/13)
Jan 4, 2008- Travis sent Jodi a text meant for somebody else. He refers to it as "I pulled a Jodi"and Jodi makes smiley faces. (4/10/13)
Jan 8, 08- Jodi text to Travis: "Awww! I fell asleep! But TO answer your questio, yes I want to grind you. And I want to be LOUD. And I want to give you a nice, warm mouth hug too"
Jan 10, 2008- Jodi's own word to the police 00:55
JA: Yeah. It was in his room, ummm and he had his laptop. It was on his bed. Umm I didn’t find out about Lisa until after we broke … We had this conversation where we decided to all just come clean, and that was quite a conversation, umm because I was never unfaithful, but when we started dating that timeline around February. The reason I remember Feb he had told me in December you know go date other people kind of thing, and so I did, so January 10 that I went on a date with umm…my friend, John, for lunch… we just went out and had sushi nothing romantic happened. We didn’t hold hands. We didn’t kiss. I think we hugged, and I guess it was considered a date cos he asked me and I accepted and he paid for it, umm and that was in Pasadena.http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=gglhBzgDly8
Jan 15, 08- Jodi writes Travis a check for $699
Jan 11, 08-Jodi writes Travis a check for $100
Jan 18, 08- Jodi text to Travis "My pussy is SO WET"
Jan 18, 08- EX 489- Jodi's text to Travis talking about BJ's and face jizz
1-18-08 Jodi: Will do. The reason I was asking about later tonight is because I want to give u a nice bj and I'd like a generous facial in return. Whaddya say? Or we can just grind?
Travis: That's a good close.Jan 20-24, 08- EX 458- Diary entry about Lonnie being baptized and Jodi and Travis being naughty
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EX 458-So I went to the church building to met up w/ the sister & gave them a ride to the institute building, where I am now. I'm sitting next to Sister Knight (who's totally trying to read this!) and Lonnie, who was just confirmed today. He was baptized Thursday night. Shame on me, I was "wrapped up" in other activities that pulled me away from attending his baptism. Namely work, but then getting prepped to go to Travis' house for the night, where we explored every naughty fantasy we could conjure up in our fruitful imaginations that we haven't already fulfilled w/ one another. I love him. I really do.
Jan 20, 08- is the night of the tootsie pops and pop rock sex
Jan 21-22 EX 461 & 462-Text messages where Jodi wants to borrow Travis' car
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EX 461 & 462-1-21-08Jodi: I can't remember- am I coming in for u on Wed at 10:30?Jodi: Can we trade cars before FHEJodi: Nevermind. One of the stores I need to go to closes at 8pm. I'll just go tomorrow Jodi: I'm almost asleep. We'll see. Zzz...
Travis: You obviously don't need it that bad. I got a ride so you could go get the car. Now your going to sleep?
Jodi: I fell asleep and a phone call woke me up. That's when I sent u the txt. Jodi: I have a really bad headache. I can barely move.
Travis: Alright get it tomorrow then
Jodi: Can u talk right now?
Travis: not right now
Jodi: How long?
Travis: Did you use my phone this morning without asking?
Jodi: I only used it after I asked u in the office. Why? Why?
Jan 21-22- The date Jodi claims Travis was being a PEDO with little boy pictures
Jan 22, 2008- Jodi comes back. She can't loan him anymore money. He throws her to the floor. Then he kicks her, then kicks her a second time and breaks her finger. Travis leaves the room. Jodi wondered if Travis was getting a weapon But Travis comes back and splints Jodi's finger. (4/3/13)
Jan 22, 08- The date Jodi says that Travis kicked her and hurt her finger. (Day 2 of JM's cross)
Jan 21-22, 08- Travis text Jodi wanting to know if she went into his phone. This is part of the EX 736 where Jodi wants to borrow Travis' BMW, he lets her, but then she doesn't come get it because she has a headache.
1-22-08 Travis: Did you use my phone this morning without asking?
Jodi: I only used it after I asked u in the office. Why? Why?Jan 22, 08- Jodi text Travis wanting to know if he put a deposit in her account.
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1-22-08
Jodi: Did u make the deposit?
Travis: yes
Jodi: Thank you! I'll make it up to u soon.Jodi: I'm gonna need a ride! I'm off at 4pm. Txt me.
Jodi: Scratch that. They're keeping me her til 5pm! (can you pick me up then? The lunch offer from my vmail still stands.
Travis: Sure.
Jodi: I'm almost off. Yea! Are u eating? If so, just sit at the counter.
Jan 22, 08- When Jodi claims Travis chased her, then kicked her which broke her finger.
Jan 24, 08-EX 456-The diary entry where Jodi says "Nothing noteworthy happened"
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EX 456
Thursday 1-24-08
I haven't written because there has been nothing noteworthy to report. I turned down 4 offers for a date this Friday night. 4 separate offers. That's mildly amusing. Instead, I'm going to dinner at Brother Porter's house. It's for new ward members. I'm tempted to skip out though and go w/my friend to the snow. I could get some Reading & journal writing done and probably take some great pictures. Not to mention, spend time w/ some good friends. Anyway, we'll see-JAA
Jan 30, 08- Jodi write Travis a check for $220
Feb 2008
Feb 08- Lisa said this is the month her and Travis broke up. July 07- Feb 08
Feb 8-14 2008 Text message- Travis wants favors from Jodi. They talk nice to each other. Palin directs her to Feb 10- Travis was planning to take Jodi somewhere then another place to knock off her socks off. (4/3/13)
Feb 15, 2008- EX 584- Diary- Jodi started a LDS linkup account to meet other men. Travis is having money problems, so Jodi is not sure they are still going to that special place Travis wanted to take her (4/3/13)
Feb 25, 2008- Text- Travis is upset b/c Jodi is not responding. Jodi's phone had issues.(4/3/13)
Feb 25, 08- EX 494 Text where Jodi wants a good spanking and ass pounding from Travis
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EX-494-Jodi: Hmm...if ur a lucky boy- and u promise to give me a good well-deserved spanking. Maybe u could give my ass a much-needed pounding too...kidding!=)
Feb 26, 08- EX 442- Text about schoolgirl
Feb 26- EX 585- Diary- Jodi says they have a good tender sexual experience. (this is also the day that she text about the horny school girl) Jodi writes in her diary that Travis wants to date MiMi. (4/3/13)
Same EX- Jodi is excited about meeting Sam Schulz and the Vegas trip. Alice says she has seen no evidence of Jodi being jealous. (4/3/13)
Feb 29, 2008- Travis says that he has tons of great experiences with Jodi.(4/3/13)
Spring 2008- Jodi said she found out about MiMi in the spring 2008. She also said in Early 2008, Travis showed Jodi pictures of MiMi and told Jodi he liked MiMi. Jodi said this her last day on the stand.
March 2008
March 2008- Jodi says her and Travis were driving to a tax seminar when he had road rage and hit her.
March 1, 2008- Jodi texts Travis wanting to borrow his BMW the next day.
3-1-08Jodi: Hi Sweetie, I hope ur enjoying ur party. May I please drive the BMW to church tomorrow? I only need it for that day and I'll bring it back b4 the day is over.
Travis: Ofcourse
Jodi: Thanks baby! You're the best
Mar 2, 08- EX 471- Diary entry where Jodi mentions Travis taking MiMi on a date for rockclimbing and how Jodi feel asleep at Travis' house. (There are about 8 EX's for this one)
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EX 471-Sunday 3-2-08 Well, I didn't get back to writing last night. Let's see, Friday, I went over to T-dogg's for a while to clean. Shortly there after he went out to go rock climbing w/ MiMi Hall, their 3rd date, or 2 1/2 really, no 3rd. He said it went really well. I accidentally fell asleep so I was there when he returned. I was supposed to go four-wheeling but missed out because I was exhausted and fell asleep.
Anyway, the next morning. Saturday he picked me up so we could go to the tax seminar, but we ended up not going. He bought me some breakfast at Fili B's, which I was grateful for. Anyway, on the way back home I told him my plans to move back to Yreka, and that I probably wouldn't be plugging into PPL events anymore. This will help us both move on and close the gap. One thing I'll really miss about AZ, is that there are so many awesome Mormons my age, and I've met tons of incredible people that I've come to love and really cherish their friendship.
Well, Travis and I talked some more in his car, and we were able to say some things, at least I was, that we've been wanting to say for a long time. It was the beginning of a bittersweet closure. He is my best friend in the whole world. It is so unimaginable to live w/out him, but it has to be this way. It will be better for us both, I think. I leaned in to give him a hug and kiss on his cheek to say goodbye and he turned his head so that our lips met. It was a series of 3 very tender, very slow, very soft kisses. I love his lips.
Then I went inside, fixed my makeup, went to Starbucks, got Travis a frappuccino, took it to his house, and was supposed to get a few things of mine that he's been storing, and load up my car, but instead we ended up being naughty again. That will be another advantage to me moving away, since we can't seem to keep our hands off of each other.I helped him clean for his UFC Party. I've never really been into the UFC much, although I appreciate it, it's not really my thing.
However, Lonnie invited me to his UFC party, and I really like Lonnie, so I went & put up w/it for a while. I was fun, actually.
When I got home, Travis called. We talked for an hour & 1/2, til we were both too sleepy to stay awake any longer. We made jokes about facebook, talked about how if we'd had children their lips would be such that Angelina Jolie would cry. Just fun talk. I love him.
March 2, 08- A diary entry from Jodi about moving and how hard it was for her.
Sunday 3-2-08 I guess this week will be busy, consisting of planning and organizing. Aimee gets married on Saturday. I wish I could turn back the clock and make some different decisions. I'm excited to see Angela & Joseph, and my cat, Luna. I have anxiety about moving. This is going to be a period of my life when I will need to remember to breathe deeply, and flow-JAMarch 2, 2008- A 3rd violent event in the car. 3rd event- She talked about moving to Yreka and Travis slapped her across the face. Takes place in Travis' car. This is also when they are driving to the tax seminar. (4/3/13 Hearsay by Alice)
March 13-Diary entry- EX 586- Jodi is talking about a trip. Roswell NM and caverns. Jodi talks about how much she is going to miss him. Jodi brings up MiMi again (4/3/13)
March 17, 2008- Text message- Jodi and Travis- They both said they had a great time on their trip. They are loving with each other (4/3/13)
Mar 20, 08- Jodi says this is the day she dyed her hair brown. (Jodi said it on the stand 2/13/13)
March 22, 2008- EX 440- Text messages- Travis invites Jodi over and tells her to make herself at home. (Alice said on 4/4/13)
Mar 27, 2008- EX 594-Travis's journal- Travis talks about Jodi moving. Travis thinks it will be good for both of them. (EX not shown in court. Alice said this on 4/4/13)
March 30, 2008- Jodi and Travis argued in text messages. Jodi didn't respond b/c she was asleep- (said by Alice on 4/4/13)
Mar 30, 08- EX 443 - The text where Jodi gets on the Travis for cussing. It's a long text. Travis is telling Jodi she is full of drama.
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EX 443-Travis: It gets old when you dramatize everything. You stress me out on a regular basic. You have 27 hours and your moaning about not making PC. You shouldn't hang up on someone trying to help you. Now you are on your own.
Jodi: Nor should I have to. I wanted to tell u something about today. It's important and time is of the essence.
Travis: Too bad u shouldn't have hung up.
Jodi: It was for YOUR own benefit-not mine. I only wanted to tell u because I care about you.
Travis: Whatever Jodi
Jodi: I'll whatever you in the nose Travis. I was just trying to help u out. U've hung up on me several time b4 even after I've asked u not 2. It's reasonable that I shdn't tolerate swearing, but again I'm very sorry. Have a great day.March 30, 2008-EX 444- Jodi said on the stand to Nurmi this text happened the day she was moving back to Yreka in the Uhaul. It's the day Travis flipped her off as she was leaving.
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Travis: Do not call me. And do not text me anything. The next text I want if this Michele K that is friends with Elena that suddenly knows everything about my life. ? thing ever. Until you have that information. Its 15 minutes it would take to get the info. But you won't take 15 minutes. Why because it is an Fing lie. So either text me you that you are ready to tell the truth or give me your imaginary friend with the worst BS story you have ever told or leave me alone. Its a lie like no other. It is freaking foolish. There is no way out of it, you have screwed up your story so bad you can't mend it. You are caught. When you will realize that. I do not know. You have till tomorrow. To have me this person information before I tell all of the hughes' leslie udy, the freemans, your parents and anyone else that matters about all the crazy things you have done. So either fess up or feel the wrath. No matter how bad the truth is I promise you the punishment will be better than the lie. This is worse than your magical email that a mysterious man you've never seen before wrote you. You insult me by thinking ill believe such crap. Nothing else from you til the truth. I already know your lying so why continue. After tomorrow, it's gonna get real bad for you. Time to spit it out.
March 2008-15:36 Jodi's word in the police video:
Jodi: Wow is that a painting or a photography?
I owe my parents a lot of money, and I owe my grandparents a lot of money, and I owe friends money and I owe… I owe... I umm…the guy that I bought a house with – I owe him a lot of money. He doesn’t ask me for it but I intend to pay him back because he really footed the bill on the mortgage for a few months, umm… and the third reason, and I like to put this third because I like to think that second of those reasons I would have been strong enough somehow but the third reason was to put a distance… a physical distance between Travis and I because… I know that he really liked me and he said he did – ummm… he just… I kinda’ felt guilty, and I know they weren’t dating, but I just felt guilty, somehow, and I didn’t know Ryan at the time. I met him in March at… in Oklahoma City, and it was just brief, and I remember seeing him and saying, Oh, I really want to go say Hi to him, but he was surrounded by people, and he was kind of unapproachable. Umm…and he says he remembers meeting me, too, and it wasn’t until Zion, my friend, umm…texted me…and I think I told you that …http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=vE_Ue5rF8QMApril 2008
April 2008 - Arias moved from Arizona to California. That same month, Alexanderposted a blog entry stating, "This Year will be the Best year of my life. This is the year that will eclipse all others. I will earn more, learn more, travel more, serve more, love more, give more and be more than all the other years of my life combined."
Apr 1, 2008- text- Travis sends a text to Jodi about how much he is going to miss her. (said by Alice on 4/4/13)
April 7, 2008- EX 444- Travis wants to know where Jodi is at. Jodi is in Hollister. A few hour later- long text message from Travis- The do not call me and don't text me-text. Jodi told Alice that Travis wanted the identity of a woman who told Jodi about Lisa Andrews. (said by Alice on 4/4/13)
April 8, 2008-EX 445- Text- The drawing Jodi left behind. Travis says" it's always drama with you." Travis tells Jodi not to call back. He tells her bitter feeling are brewing in him for her.
Jodi tells him to have a good day. Travis tells her she is rude. Travis talks about how he is trying to save his house. (4/4/13)
Apr 8, 2008- Travis' dairy- Travis talks about wanting to find someone to marry and how it will be easier since Jodi and Deanne are gone. Travis is stretched for money. Travis misses Lisa and feels like a fool for going after MiMi-and he feels like an idiot. (4/4/13)
April 08- Jodi said she told Matt about Travis' PEDO issues. She said this on the stand her last day.
Apri 08- Jodi went on a date with Abe. She said Travis got mad, hit her then threw her on the ground and broke her finger.
Apr 08- EX 445- A text about drawing.
April 8, 08 08- Jodi tells JM on the stand that this is when she was sitting on the washer, Travis became a madman and threw her down and choked her. (Jodi said this to JM on 2/25/13)
April 18, 08-EX 484- A text message where Jodi tells Travis she loves him and he is a rock.
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EX 484Apr 19, 2008- Text messages- Travis is offended b/c Jodi insulted him about his speaking ability. Jodi is back in Yreka at this time. (4/4/13)
Travis, I thank you for being such a an amazing friend. You are a rock, a light, and an inspiration. I love you dearly. I appreciate all the ways you've gone out of your way for me. Thank you thank you thank you...
April 20, 2008-Travis sent this text to Jodi: "I am at a night club right now and it helped me to come to the conclusion that you are one of the prettiest girls on the planet."
April 21, 2008-Travis sent this text to Jodi: "Send me a naughty picture."
Spring 08
Spring 08- Jodi says on re-cross with Nurmi that this is when she found out about MiMi Hall and this is when he told Jodi he wanted to marry MiMi.
May 2008
May 2, 08- EX 392-Text about Little Red Riding Hood
May 2, 08- (Bought up during the Retrial on 11/24/14) 3 minutes later there's another one. 3 minutes later another one. Juan points out a piece of the text that says "muse"
IM between Travis and Jodi...Jodi says "You've been a fantastic outlet for my musings"
May 2, 08- EX 391- Long nasty text about photo shoots and sex
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5-2-08 (9:13-9:21 am) Travis texts to Jodi: Send me some of the pictures I want to see of you right now. Remember this. That photoshoot is gonna be one of the best experiences of your life and mine. I haven't stopped thinking about it, the pic ill take, the progressiveness of it, from very clean to very very dirty and everything in between.
It will tell quite a story and be a lot of fun and not a day has gone by that I haven't dream(t) about driving my shaft long and hard into you. When I am all by lonesome I have no desire to think of anyone else in my scandalous fantasies because from my own experience nothing is even enjoyable compared to you.
Because of that I sped a lot more time getting myself off. What you do and let me do to u puts me on another planet. You are the ultimate slut in bed. No wonder I blow enormous loads every time. I want to send one down your throat and another on your face and want to taste you as you ride my face I want to thoroughly work my tongue along every hole of your body. You are going to get taken like you have never been taken before. When its done the intensity will make your body feel like you've been raped but you will have enjoyed every delightful moment of it.
You'll rejoice in being a whore that's sole purpose in life is to be mine to have animalistic sex with and to please me in any way I desire. I will rejoice in you getting off on the fact that you can do and have me do anything you ask of me at anytime you want it like a sex slave except for I am not obligated to do it but free to do it and is my only desire to be your muse designed for your most vile and lustful pleasures to be given to you in any form you want them.
May 3, 08- A few text where Jodi is hooking up with Ryan Burns
May 10, 2008-EX 595- IM- Jodi and Travis talk about Wayne Dier. They talk about Travis' temper. (4/4/13)
May 10, 08- Phone Sex Tape
May 10, 08- EX 495- Jodi admits to JM that she used the term "fuck you" on this day.
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Jodi says: O-MY-GOSH!!!! That is so freaking hot I want to lick it up and then sit on it! U are so tasty. My goodness...
Travis said: I'm glad you like it.
Jodi writes: Oh yes, I want to fuck you like a dirty, horny little school girl.May 10, 08- EX 448-The text message about Steve Carrol (I couldn't find the last part, but "Sneakers the wonder dog" at MDS sent me the link to the court doc-Thanks).Court Document
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EX 448Jodi says: Hey there some one has my google password because he's helping me w/some things on my google blog. Unfortunately, he happens to be an ex boyfriend?
Travis says: You and your Steve cover up make me freaking sick. You are liar to the core of who you are it seems.
Jodi says: I was just trying to move my business to a more private venue. You brought it up. The fact that I'm a single girl talking to some guy is not sick. Being completely honest about him w/you was a mistake. I spared you only a few details because everytime I begin to divulge anything like that you stop me and tell me you don't want to hear about that stuff. SO I was vague on purpose for that reason exactly. But nothin I said about him was untrue.
Travis says: Why don't you have him come and fuck you in the woods, I can only imagine you are so worried about me reading. You are paranoid because you have no respect for people privacy and you dare insult me of all people. Someone you have should through your actions you hate more than love by denying me a human right of privacy countless times. You have a lot of freaking nerve. We are not all like you in that aspect.
May 10, 08- EX 425, 426, 427-Breast pictures. (These were not shown in court) but they are pre surgery breast pictures before Jodi's surgery in June 06
May 10, 08- Jodi posted the last entry to her blog. It reads, in part: "I cannot ignore that there is an ever-present yearning and desire that pulses within me. It throbs for gratification and fulfillment."
May 10, 08- according to prosecutors, Alexander sent this text to Arias: "Why don't you have him come and f--k you in the woods, I can only imagine you are so worried about me reading. You are paranoid because you have no respect for people privacy and you dare insult me of all people. Someone you should through your actions you hate more than love by denying me a human right of privacy countless times. You have a lot of freaking nerve. We are all not like you in that aspect."
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/31/jodi-arias-timeline_n_2387245.html
May 11, 08-EX 499- The text where Travis tells Jodi she looks beautiful in her photos
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Travis says: Honey you lok beautiful in all your pics
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Jodi: Thanks sweetie. You never fail to make me feel beautiful
Travis: Plus I just got urother pics downloaded and you are smoking hot in them
Jodi: Yea!=)
Travis: Alright I'm falling a sleep. Good nighty night.
Jodi: Good night. I just realized this is the first month I forgot to say Happy 2nd day of the month in almost a year.=(I guess it's to be expected eventually...but happy belated 2nd anyway. Good night.
Travis: Yeah I waited but no love I wasn't gonna guilt you but it hurts. night
Jodi: G'night love.
May 15, 08- EX 452- The picture of Jodi and her sister with the blondish highlights
May 16,08- EX 406- Long email that Jodi wrote to Travis (This EX is posted at the bottom of this blog on this page-Enjoy!!)
May 18, 2008-Travis makes a blog post titles "Why I want to marry a Gold Digger"
May 19, 2008- EX 599- Travis and Regan have an 18 page conversation about Jodi stalking him. At one point, they even think Jodi is watching them during their conversation, so they both speak to her as if she were reading. At one point, Travis even mentions being extremely afraid of Jodi. (4/8/13)
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May 19, 08- EX 399- The poem Jodi wrote to Travis
How doth the mind of the lord See it fitting that I should be bored That I might compose some poetry And send it speedily off to thee poem But I think is that in fact If I am bored then I must act For it is my own restless mind That has responded this way in kind And for that boredom of which I speak I am still grateful for it’s not bleak I am still happy for there is much I can still do for it and such Like send an email after three And read another book you see So here’s to wishing you a timeThat’s full of happiness and rhyme May your days be full of stimulation And not just in simulation But in reality Just the way you’d have it be"May 22, 08- Jodi says on the stand that she changed her passwords to all her accounts.
May 22, 2008- EX 591- Jodi's diary entry- Jodi talks about the laws of chastity.
Jodi thinks it would help if Jodi and Travis wouldn't be physical with each other anymore. Travis gets upset. Travis thought she was seeing somebody else. He though she was getting her kicks somewhere else. Jodi talks about how Travis always mentions his undying love for MiMi and Jodi thinks that is alright. She is okay with it. Travis is upset b/c things are not going well with MiMi.
(4/4/13) (I am adding the transcribed diary entry at the bottom of this post. It's 8 pages)
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JA: No. No. He was supposed to come twice. He was gonna’ maybe come up as… and I kinda’ like was hoping he would come by March, I’m sorry, May 24th, because I was singing the National Anthem at the races and I thought… I just... it’s part of one of my goals for this year was one of my fears to overcome was being in front of large crowds or public speaking, um…so http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=an-4tXTOq1YMay 25-26, 08- Jodi says she remembers that night very well! She called Travis about the pedophile pamphlets she sent him and Travis got upset. They had phone calls and text messages over the fight.
May 25-26 EX 275- It's 16 pages of IM messages. "What a freaking whore" was one thing Travis said. Travis said: cheap whore, corrupted carcass, Hitler had more of a conscience than you, solid form of evil, Next dick, worthless words, he hates her, caused him more pain than his father, rotten lunatic, liar, Satan, 3 hole wonder, tips for BJ's, Travis is just a dildo with a heartbeat, worthless, bitch, lies make you worthless, you take up air, laughing stock, you only care about Jodi, demented. (EX was not shown. Hearsay from Alyce on 4/4/13)
May 26, 2:36am (during Retrial 11/20/14- more came out about this messaged between Jodi and Travis)
Travis "I've never dealt with a more solid form of evil"
Travis- I hate you..I do realize that I hate you so much you have been more cause of pain than the death of my father. You are relentless in your torture of people that have loved you and protected you and served you and what do you do you try to destroy them, you are the lowest of low you are sick and evil and knowing you makes me want to kill myself in punishment..I'm so stupid. I don't even know if you are human.
Jodi- I am so so sorry. If anyone should it is me. You are light unto this world. I can't even compare
Travis tells her that Hilter has more of a conscious
Travis- Send your piece of shit lie fest so I can mock it.
We already know based on all the last emails you sent and then invaded my privacy that it is bullshit.
Travis- yeah you are 3 hole wonder you are good for something. I loved someone that never existed, what I thought was real never existed. Finish your worthless email. I know you got into my computer and erased an email to Lisa. You stole my journals, you slashed my tires and I know it
Travis- Send your piece of shit lie fest so I can mock it.
We already know based on all the last emails you sent and then invaded my privacy that it is bullshit.
Travis- yeah you are 3 hole wonder you are good for something. I loved someone that never existed, what I thought was real never existed. Finish your worthless email. I know you got into my computer and erased an email to Lisa. You stole my journals, you slashed my tires and I know it
Jodi- I may be a coward, I may be a whore, liar, but the one thing I'm not is violent. I didn't slash your tires.
Travis- You never saw me of more value as a piece of shit unless I was serving some purpose to u. I am less that nothing to you.
Jodi- I really did love you. But I let it get so distorted. I'm so so so sorry. I have no excuse. none.
Travis- You tried to murder me from the inside out...how could you
Jodi- I really did love you. But I let it get so distorted. I'm so so so sorry. I have no excuse. none.
Travis- You tried to murder me from the inside out...how could you
Travis- Why did you manipulate me into loving you? I was a good guy. why did you have to do it to me, why did you hate me. What was your objective, what was the point
Jodi- I don't know what you mean ruin you? I would never set out to deliberately do that to you.
Jodi- I don't know what you mean ruin you? I would never set out to deliberately do that to you.
Jodi- The sexual part for me was an unevolved way of trying to be more loved. I knew you weren't in love with me. I knew you cared, but that it wasn't that kind of love.
Jodi- My sex drive is gone
Travis- I doubt that....
Jodi- There is no excuse for me to be alive...
Travis- I want a real answer.
Travis- Yes I'm addicted to it. I keep taking u back and you know it. You know I'll get pissed but I'll take you back.
Jodi- Honestly, aside from what I wanted to say, it was me that wanted to hear your voice just once. It's like a little fix. You're not the only one addicted
May 24- 26, 2008- EX 592- Diary entry-Jodi writes about the IM message where Travis called her names. Jodi doesn't give details, she just says "classic rude" b/c she made a promise to Travis not to write bad things in her diary. Jodi compares Travis to her own father.(4/4/13)
May 27, 2008- Another diary entry- Jodi talks about meeting Ryan Burns in Utah (4/4/13)
May 25-26, 08- EX 450- The text where Travis calls her a sociopath.
May 28, 08- Jodi's grandparents home is robbed. A gun is stolen
May 28, 08- Jodi tells JM that this is the date she found out Travis was taking MiMi to Cancun. (She admitted this on Day 3 of JM's cross of Jodi)
May 30, 2008- Diary entry- Jodi is talking about when she's leaving to met up with Ryan (4/4/13)
May 31, 08- EX 506 & 507- Jodi's bloody finger she cut at work, then took pictures.
May 2008- Jodi answers the jury questions and says this is when Travis hit on her car.
June 2008
June 08- Travis mentions to a friend that Jodi hacked his facebook account
June 1, 2008- Diary entry- Her plans to visit OG and Matt. She talks about telling Travis about her trip to Utah. She doesn't tell Travis that she's meeting another guy. Travis wants Jodi to come see him. She tells Travis NO. She reminded him that he was suppose to visit her soon anyway. (4/4/13)
June 2, 08- Small timeline
June 2, 08- Jodi says that her and Travis talked on the phone about a PPL member that passed away (Gordon Hinckley)
June 2- 3, 08- Jodi said she saw Matt in Sea Grove. She stayed the night with him and left the next morning.
June 3, 2008- Darryl said on the stand-Jodi came by his house, had breakfast, son was there, and that was 7am. Allowed Jodi to use his computer. Matt M showed up, and Jodi took off.
After she took off that morning, she returned and gave him a remote control
June 3, 2008- A small timeline
June 3, 2008-EX 607- Alyce's notes- Alyce talks about the gas cans. Jodi told OG she needed 2 gas can b/c she was taking a long trip to Mesa and didn't want to run out of gas
June 4th 2008- Jodi told Alyce that Travis chased her. Jodi grabbed the gun and she didn't believe it was loaded. Jodi said she pulled the trigger, and she told Alyce that they were BOTH in the closet. They are both in the closet when Jodi pulled the trigger. (4/10/13)
June 4, 2008- EX 618-Alyce's notes- The knife was left on the nightstand.
June 4, 2008- Jodi said on the stand that she arrived at Travis' house between 3:30-4:00 am.
June 4, 2008 12:13pm- Last outgoing phone call made from Travis' phone. Followed by unanswered text and messages.
June 4, 2008 1:40 pm- Start of the naked photos. 2 of Travis, 6 of Jodi
June 4, 2008 4:19 pm-Last activity on Travis' computer
June 4, 2008 5:22pm-Time stamp of first deleted photo
June 4, 2008 5:30 pm- Last photo of Travis alive (deleted)
June 4, 2008 5:31:14-Ceiling Picture taken
June 4, 2008 5:32:32- Picture of Travis being dragged
June 4, 2008 7:00- Travis misses a conference call with Chris Hughes
June 7, 2008- EX 505- Email Jodi sent Travis
June 9, 2008 - Alexander's friends, concerned because they had not heard from him for several days, went to his home in the 11,400 block of East Queensborough Ave. and found him dead inside his standup shower. A state of advanced decomposition suggested that he had been dead for several days. Large amounts of blood were discovered throughout the master bathroom, including on the floors, walls and sink area.
June 13, 2008-EX 610-Alyce's notes-Purple Plum-A waitress said Jodi was only nice to good looking men. Jodi was being manipulative with men.
June 13, 2008 - Arias posted a photo gallery on her MySpace page titled "In Loving Memory of Travis."
June 17, 2008 - Arias went to the Mesa Police Headquarters and was voluntarily fingerprinted. She also gave investigators a sample of her saliva for DNA testing. While waiting for the lab test results to come back, investigators were notified that several shocking images, some of which had been deleted, were recovered from the memory card of the camera found in Alexander's washing machine.
June 21, 2008 - Travis Alexander was laid to rest in Olivewood Memorial Park in Riverside, Calif.
The driving map from HLN
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EX 591
Thurs. May 22, 2008
Today has been a day of good new & sad news. Good news: My phone arrived! And not a moment too soon. Sad news: I finally had "the conversation" w/Travis and it did not go well. I sort of put it to him already in an email I sent a few days ago and he didn't like that either, nor did he take the hint. So I realized I had to be a little bit more direct. I told him that of course I'm looking for to his impending visit, that I can't wait to check more things off of the list (from 1,000 places) but that we probably would be better off in all ways if we were not physical.
Jodi- My sex drive is gone
Travis- I doubt that....
Jodi- There is no excuse for me to be alive...
Travis- I want a real answer.
Travis- Yes I'm addicted to it. I keep taking u back and you know it. You know I'll get pissed but I'll take you back.
Jodi- Honestly, aside from what I wanted to say, it was me that wanted to hear your voice just once. It's like a little fix. You're not the only one addicted
May 24- 26, 2008- EX 592- Diary entry-Jodi writes about the IM message where Travis called her names. Jodi doesn't give details, she just says "classic rude" b/c she made a promise to Travis not to write bad things in her diary. Jodi compares Travis to her own father.(4/4/13)
May 27, 2008- Another diary entry- Jodi talks about meeting Ryan Burns in Utah (4/4/13)
May 25-26, 08- EX 450- The text where Travis calls her a sociopath.
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EX 450-5-26-08Travis said: I sent you a response to your dire conversation, that I hope you read because you need to read it. Maybe it will spark human emotion in you. Something that only seems to exist when it comes to your own problems. But everyone else is just a part of your sick agenda. By the way. Your pic comment to Danny Jones makes you look like a pure whore, even more to the people who know you. You should be embarrassed by it. If he knew what I knew about you he’d spit in ur face. Sow ould (So would) everyone else. I have never never in my life been hurt so bad by someone. But why do I even say it because you don’t care. It doesn’t serve your evilness.
You couldn’t get off your lazy butt to to read it could you. That’s the sociopath I know so well. It freakin figuresI don't want your apology. I want you to understand what I think of you. I want you understand how evil I think you are. You are the worst thing that ever happened to me.
9:11 pm-You are a sociopath. You only cry for yourself. You have never cared out me and you have betrayed me worse than any example I could conjure you are sick and you have scammed me.
Jodi says: I don't have an email from you? Which email did you send it to?
Travis replies: ur facebook
Jodi says: Hmm, I didnt get an email notice about it but I'll check it now.
May 28, 08- Jodi's grandparents home is robbed. A gun is stolen
May 28, 08- Jodi tells JM that this is the date she found out Travis was taking MiMi to Cancun. (She admitted this on Day 3 of JM's cross of Jodi)
May 30, 2008- Diary entry- Jodi is talking about when she's leaving to met up with Ryan (4/4/13)
May 31, 08- EX 506 & 507- Jodi's bloody finger she cut at work, then took pictures.
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May 2008- Jodi answers the jury questions and says this is when Travis hit on her car.
June 2008
June 08- Travis mentions to a friend that Jodi hacked his facebook account
June 1, 2008- Diary entry- Her plans to visit OG and Matt. She talks about telling Travis about her trip to Utah. She doesn't tell Travis that she's meeting another guy. Travis wants Jodi to come see him. She tells Travis NO. She reminded him that he was suppose to visit her soon anyway. (4/4/13)
June 2, 08- Small timeline
- 1:00 am -3am-Jodi calls Travis 4 times
- 3 am-Travis called Jodi twice
- 4:03 am-Jodi called Travis for 5th time
- 5:39 am- Jodi eats near Yreka
- 8:04 am- Jodi rents a car.
- 4:03 & 5:28 pm-Jodi calls Travis for 5th and 6th time
- 7:32 pm & 8:41 pm- Jodi is at Mcdonalds and Valero
June 2, 08- Jodi says that her and Travis talked on the phone about a PPL member that passed away (Gordon Hinckley)
June 2- 3, 08- Jodi said she saw Matt in Sea Grove. She stayed the night with him and left the next morning.
June 3, 2008- Darryl said on the stand-Jodi came by his house, had breakfast, son was there, and that was 7am. Allowed Jodi to use his computer. Matt M showed up, and Jodi took off.
After she took off that morning, she returned and gave him a remote control
June 3, 2008- A small timeline
- 10:10am- Jodi deposits $800 in 2 accounts
- 12:57 & 1:51 pm- Jodi calls Travis for the 8th and 9th time
- 3:22 pm- Jodi stops at Walmart
- 8:16 & 8:34 pm- Jodi calls Travis for the 10th and 11th time
- 8:42 pm Jodi buys gas 3 times
- Between 9 and 10pm- Jodi calls Ryan Burns
June 3, 2008-EX 607- Alyce's notes- Alyce talks about the gas cans. Jodi told OG she needed 2 gas can b/c she was taking a long trip to Mesa and didn't want to run out of gas
June 4th 2008- Jodi told Alyce that Travis chased her. Jodi grabbed the gun and she didn't believe it was loaded. Jodi said she pulled the trigger, and she told Alyce that they were BOTH in the closet. They are both in the closet when Jodi pulled the trigger. (4/10/13)
June 4, 2008- EX 618-Alyce's notes- The knife was left on the nightstand.
June 4, 2008- Jodi said on the stand that she arrived at Travis' house between 3:30-4:00 am.
June 4, 2008 12:13pm- Last outgoing phone call made from Travis' phone. Followed by unanswered text and messages.
June 4, 2008 1:40 pm- Start of the naked photos. 2 of Travis, 6 of Jodi
June 4, 2008 4:19 pm-Last activity on Travis' computer
June 4, 2008 5:22pm-Time stamp of first deleted photo
June 4, 2008 5:30 pm- Last photo of Travis alive (deleted)
June 4, 2008 5:31:14-Ceiling Picture taken
June 4, 2008 5:32:32- Picture of Travis being dragged
June 4, 2008 7:00- Travis misses a conference call with Chris Hughes
June 7, 2008- EX 505- Email Jodi sent Travis
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EX 505
Sat June 7, 2008
Jodi's email to Travis (after she killed him)
Hey you...
I haven't heard back from you. I hope you're not still upset that I didn't come to see you. I just have enough time off. It's ok, sweetie, you're going to be here in less than two weeks-we're going to see the sights, check thing off "the list" and all kinds of fun things. Oregon is BEAUTIFUL this time of the year. Yaaay!.....be happy.
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about pushing my visit up to next week, but it depend on my budget, so I'm not for sure yet. I know you'll be in Cancun, but I'll probably crash at your house in your cozy bed anyway...eat some of your oatmeal and frozen dinner, you know, the usual-jk=) I know you said the door is always open, but I wanted to give you the heads up. If for any reason that won't work, let me know and I'll make other ??. Your house has always been my second home-although it's a bit more lonely....???
June 9, 2008 - Alexander's friends, concerned because they had not heard from him for several days, went to his home in the 11,400 block of East Queensborough Ave. and found him dead inside his standup shower. A state of advanced decomposition suggested that he had been dead for several days. Large amounts of blood were discovered throughout the master bathroom, including on the floors, walls and sink area.
It was ultimately determined that Alexander had been shot in the right brow with a .25-caliber gun -- the bullet was found lodged in his left cheek -- and that he had been stabbed 27 times. Someone had also cut his throat from ear to ear.
Investigators found several vital clues inside Alexander's bedroom and bathroom. A spent .25-caliber shell casing was located on the floor near the sink, and a hair and a small latent print in blood were found near the entrance to the bathroom hall. Also, a digital camera was found in the washing machine in the downstairs laundry room. The camera appeared to have been run through the wash cycle.
June 10-17, 2008 Jodi's dairy entry. Listed at the bottom of this post. |
| June 10-17 Transcript at the bottom |
June 13, 2008 - Arias posted a photo gallery on her MySpace page titled "In Loving Memory of Travis."
June 17, 2008 - Arias went to the Mesa Police Headquarters and was voluntarily fingerprinted. She also gave investigators a sample of her saliva for DNA testing. While waiting for the lab test results to come back, investigators were notified that several shocking images, some of which had been deleted, were recovered from the memory card of the camera found in Alexander's washing machine.
June 21, 2008 - Travis Alexander was laid to rest in Olivewood Memorial Park in Riverside, Calif.
July 9, 2008 - Arias celebrated her 29th birthday. That same day, a grand jury in California indicted her on first-degree murder charges in the death of Alexander.
July 12, 2008- Jodi took the picture of the underwear and shirt.
July 12, 2008- Jodi took the picture of the underwear and shirt.
July 15, 2008 - Jodi was arrested and charged with 1st degree Murder
September 5, 2008 – Arias was extradited to AZ.
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EX 406- Email Jodi wrote to Travis May 16, 2008
Travis,
Hey, there, I feel like sharing this with you. After all, you are my friend. It’s been a bit of a sore subject for both of us in the past and sometimes it feels like it continues to be, but I hope you’ll understand where I am coming from. I really hope you can stretch your mind and heart for this and put yourself in my shoes for the moment. I’m not saying you have to stay there nor do you have to agree with me, but I think if you give it an honest and sincere effort you will surely understand the way I feel, and why it is I sometimes feel this way. I know the tone of an email or text message can sometime be ambiguous since the receiver is only interpreting what the tone of the sender would be if it were spoken, so please know that the spirit in which i send this is that of love, camaraderie, and amistad (friendship).
Here goes... I realized after further introspection why it is that I asked you to give me a little mention in your next post as credit for the task of editing and grammar and typing the lengthy thing out. Partly, it is obvious. You gave your friend Katie a mention, and that was just for the intro. Logically, I am your friend, too. Your first chapter is at length and much longer, and so being the human that I am, it would make me feel good to have a little recognition thrown my way. But it goes deeper than that. I know I should be over this by now, and on most levels I am, really. But I feel that I never got the proper “credit” or recognition I deserved as your girlfriend. You say it is because you’re a private person. you say it was because of Deanna. You say it was because you were rather attached to the reputation of being a single, eligible bachelor. I understand all of that. I really do, and that’s okay, hon. I don’t harbor bad feelings over any of that stuff. I’m serious. You may be asking yourself why then the lengthy email detailing all of this, if that is in fact the case?
Well, it’s a good thing this is in “writing” because if that is your question it has already been answered in the first paragraph of this email. Refer back to it if you wish. But my cry for a little recognition comes from a place within me that feels it was never adequately gratified in that it thirsted to be validated not just as some girl friend that you associated with, but as your girlfriend. I wasn’t asking for you to give me credit for all of your greatness, no. If I had anything to do with that then only a very tiny part, if at all. Though I was beginning to wonder if you were going to be able to subscribe to the philosophy that behind every great man there is a great woman, then that philosophy is a two way street, by the way. I find myself now wishing to be recognized as your friend, and I think that comes from the fact that there is a hesitancy on your part to grant me that recognition within your entire circle of friends.
I’m going to digress a bit but I’m going to try tie it all together. Either way, this isn’t so much about flowing as it is purging. About your mode of operation with Deanna, I both appreciated and despised it at the time. I could care less now. It was a double-edge sword for you. I know. For me as well. If Deanna was happy, Travis was happy, Jodi was Happy. True, you didn’t want to deal with her interrogations and emotions, and in large part, you wanted to protect her. Easily understandable for me, having the soft heart that I do when it comes to matters of romance and broken hearts. Protecting her? That is very characteristic of your sweeter, caring, considerate side. You’ve shown that to me as well on countless occasions. You are a bit of a people-pleaser, and that has been to my benefit and not. Again, it is a double-edged sword.
You go out of your way to do things for me that will make me happy and you consider my feelings when doing certain things. I also realize it gets you tied up in certain ways. This incident about your blog, namely, where you don’t even want to give my name a mention because of the unwelcome crap and comments you receive by your friends, Chris and Sky Hughes. So there is a bit of people-pleasing going on it seems with more of your friendships beyond just the spectrum of ours. Well, I’m going to make it easier for you. Given our history and the fact that we’ve dated and all, if any of your friendships should take the back burner it should be the one you have to hide from others. Don’t misunderstand me (remember the spirit in which I am saying this). I value our friendship as one of the greatest treasures I’ve ever had the fortune of having, knowing and experiencing. Have I mishandled it in the past? Guilty. Both of our track records have been tarnished, but that doesn’t diminish how much we value each other and the inherent divinity that is within us.
When you are scrutinized, criticized and question about being my friend that’s one thing. It hurts both, yes, but it is easily rectified by standing strong and firm in defense of our friendship. You’ve done that plenty of times. Even perhaps when I was undeserving of such defense. But when you have to censor our friendship for fear of the criticism you will receive as a result of it, then it becomes awkwardly and embarrassingly apparent that something is not right, especially when all it is is a friendship. A friendship. We’re not secret lovers. It’s a friendship. I am proud to call you my friend. I am brag about you to whoever will listen, to promote you, speak highly of you and give you all of the accolades you’ve ever deserved and any chance I get. I’ve never had to hide our friendship from anyone. Never. I would publish it in major newspapers nationwide and broadcast it on syndicated radio and national television. You see. I have no shame in being your friend.
And if anyone every tried to guilt me, judge me, criticized me, harass me or otherwise give me an ounce of crap over it, I would put them in their place so fast they would never think to open their mouths on the subject again. I’m not saying you should feel or do the same. But because I am your friend first and foremost and because I care very much about your happiness and well-being. I think you would be better off if you had one less person to worry about pleasing. I’m sure you can agree with that much. It is so simple to please me, it really is (it’s the little things that just make my entire day!) but I haven’t always made it easy for you. So I’m going to be proactive and remove myself from the list of people you have to worry about pleasing. Still friends? Of course, silly! We’re not about to dissolve a friendship that was firmly formed almost 2 years ago (likely before that in the grander scheme of things, aka: the Pre-Existence).
But here I am with the proverbial scissors cutting the proverbial strings of our friendship. We remain friends only now because of our free will to do so, not because we feel as though we are still tied to each other and have to be because of some imagined obligation or nicety. This, I believe will make our life a lot less stressful and all around easier. If anything, it will be a weight off of your shoulders, one you’ve shouldered like a champ, believe me *) You’ve done more for me than some friends that I’ve known nearly 20 years! I love you and I will always be here for you as your friend and confidant.
Take comfort in that if it brings you any.
Faithfully Your Friend Jodi Arias
Travis,
Hey, there, I feel like sharing this with you. After all, you are my friend. It’s been a bit of a sore subject for both of us in the past and sometimes it feels like it continues to be, but I hope you’ll understand where I am coming from. I really hope you can stretch your mind and heart for this and put yourself in my shoes for the moment. I’m not saying you have to stay there nor do you have to agree with me, but I think if you give it an honest and sincere effort you will surely understand the way I feel, and why it is I sometimes feel this way. I know the tone of an email or text message can sometime be ambiguous since the receiver is only interpreting what the tone of the sender would be if it were spoken, so please know that the spirit in which i send this is that of love, camaraderie, and amistad (friendship).
Here goes... I realized after further introspection why it is that I asked you to give me a little mention in your next post as credit for the task of editing and grammar and typing the lengthy thing out. Partly, it is obvious. You gave your friend Katie a mention, and that was just for the intro. Logically, I am your friend, too. Your first chapter is at length and much longer, and so being the human that I am, it would make me feel good to have a little recognition thrown my way. But it goes deeper than that. I know I should be over this by now, and on most levels I am, really. But I feel that I never got the proper “credit” or recognition I deserved as your girlfriend. You say it is because you’re a private person. you say it was because of Deanna. You say it was because you were rather attached to the reputation of being a single, eligible bachelor. I understand all of that. I really do, and that’s okay, hon. I don’t harbor bad feelings over any of that stuff. I’m serious. You may be asking yourself why then the lengthy email detailing all of this, if that is in fact the case?
Well, it’s a good thing this is in “writing” because if that is your question it has already been answered in the first paragraph of this email. Refer back to it if you wish. But my cry for a little recognition comes from a place within me that feels it was never adequately gratified in that it thirsted to be validated not just as some girl friend that you associated with, but as your girlfriend. I wasn’t asking for you to give me credit for all of your greatness, no. If I had anything to do with that then only a very tiny part, if at all. Though I was beginning to wonder if you were going to be able to subscribe to the philosophy that behind every great man there is a great woman, then that philosophy is a two way street, by the way. I find myself now wishing to be recognized as your friend, and I think that comes from the fact that there is a hesitancy on your part to grant me that recognition within your entire circle of friends.
I’m going to digress a bit but I’m going to try tie it all together. Either way, this isn’t so much about flowing as it is purging. About your mode of operation with Deanna, I both appreciated and despised it at the time. I could care less now. It was a double-edge sword for you. I know. For me as well. If Deanna was happy, Travis was happy, Jodi was Happy. True, you didn’t want to deal with her interrogations and emotions, and in large part, you wanted to protect her. Easily understandable for me, having the soft heart that I do when it comes to matters of romance and broken hearts. Protecting her? That is very characteristic of your sweeter, caring, considerate side. You’ve shown that to me as well on countless occasions. You are a bit of a people-pleaser, and that has been to my benefit and not. Again, it is a double-edged sword.
You go out of your way to do things for me that will make me happy and you consider my feelings when doing certain things. I also realize it gets you tied up in certain ways. This incident about your blog, namely, where you don’t even want to give my name a mention because of the unwelcome crap and comments you receive by your friends, Chris and Sky Hughes. So there is a bit of people-pleasing going on it seems with more of your friendships beyond just the spectrum of ours. Well, I’m going to make it easier for you. Given our history and the fact that we’ve dated and all, if any of your friendships should take the back burner it should be the one you have to hide from others. Don’t misunderstand me (remember the spirit in which I am saying this). I value our friendship as one of the greatest treasures I’ve ever had the fortune of having, knowing and experiencing. Have I mishandled it in the past? Guilty. Both of our track records have been tarnished, but that doesn’t diminish how much we value each other and the inherent divinity that is within us.
When you are scrutinized, criticized and question about being my friend that’s one thing. It hurts both, yes, but it is easily rectified by standing strong and firm in defense of our friendship. You’ve done that plenty of times. Even perhaps when I was undeserving of such defense. But when you have to censor our friendship for fear of the criticism you will receive as a result of it, then it becomes awkwardly and embarrassingly apparent that something is not right, especially when all it is is a friendship. A friendship. We’re not secret lovers. It’s a friendship.
And if anyone every tried to guilt me, judge me, criticized me, harass me or otherwise give me an ounce of crap over it, I would put them in their place so fast they would never think to open their mouths on the subject again.
But here I am with the proverbial scissors cutting the proverbial strings of our friendship. We remain friends only now because of our free will to do so, not because we feel as though we are still tied to each other and have to be because of some imagined obligation or nicety.
Take comfort in that if it brings you any.
Faithfully Your Friend
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EX 591
Thurs. May 22, 2008
Today has been a day of good new & sad news. Good news: My phone arrived! And not a moment too soon. Sad news: I finally had "the conversation" w/Travis and it did not go well. I sort of put it to him already in an email I sent a few days ago and he didn't like that either, nor did he take the hint. So I realized I had to be a little bit more direct. I told him that of course I'm looking for to his impending visit, that I can't wait to check more things off of the list (from 1,000 places) but that we probably would be better off in all ways if we were not physical.
He got offended and upset, then acted distant. I tried being so sweet & speak kindly to him, playing up all of the advantages of not violation the law of chastity, and he didn't want to hear any of that. Then it got worse, he asked me who I'm seeing, have I been getting my kicks w/someone else, etc. Of course I swore that I wasn't (which is true) but also pointed out that I didn't freak out when he confess his potentially undying love for MiMi. He said to leave his love life out of it. Typical. Then after a moment, he apologized, and said a lot of his frustration is from the fact that things in his dating life arent' going that well, and yes, he still likes MiMi, but it's not progressing the way he wants it to, and he's leaning toward giving up on her. I told him to be patient, she'll come around.
The problem w/ Travis, is that he's so used to girls falling all over themselves for him & she doesn't do that. He needs that, I really think he does,-to wait.
Well, even sadder is we agreed to amicably part ways. He is an amazing person, and he's told me countless times that I am one of the most beautiful people he's ever met-on the inside & out. But it is really better this way. We both agreed to change our passwords, which we had exchanged eons ago to establish, or re-establish "trust" which we had both violated, so no more of that. We had both picked 2 accounts, so I chose Facebook & Gmail & he chose Facebook & Myspace.
We are truly good people at the core, both of us, but we can't behave ourselves when we're around each other, not even over the phone. He said I am still like kryptonite to him. But I'm tired of being guilt-ridden when the air clears.
I knew it was wrong going over there all of those nights, but I couldn't say no to him, I couldn't not pick up the phone. He would rationalize it saying "it's really not that bad" or "come on, I want to please you" and I was weak. I went anyway, I answered the phone anyway.
Moving has certainly helped me morally. I don't know if it has him or if he's found a replacement booty-call. For his sake I hope he hasn't, not because it would be a replacement but because it is not spiritually productive. We both want to get married and I don't think either of us is anywhere near that if we continue to act immorally w/ each other. I am mortified that my phone was stolen. It had a hugely scandalous text message from him (10 pgs!) that he sent last week. It would make a steamy romance novel sound like a script from a G-rated Disney movie. I also had 1 or 2 recorded conversations that were equally as scandalous. I never did figure out how to play those back for him. Well they're gone now & we won't be making more. Well, actually I wouldn't be on it entirely, one of us will crack & call the other. It's crazy, but what can you do?
Wherever my phone is now, I just hope to text messages & conversations are never discovered. Yikes. It's certainly not Pamela Anderson or Paris Hilton level scandal, there's no video, but it would be embarrassing none the less.
I am honestly relieved about the whole thing. The "just friends" had to many complicated "benefits" I'm not seeing anyone per se, but somehow I feel like it still isn't fair to any of my current prospects. And Travis said he's still certain he wants to marry MiMi, although they're not yet dating. It's not fair to her either, in my opinion. We hadn't talked about her in so long, I didn't realized he was still in pursuit. I wouldn't dare lecture him over it though. The first thing that almost popped out of my mouth was, "Then why the hell are we still messing around if that's the case?!?" But I kept it shut. For 2 reasons. 1. It would be like the pot calling kettle black (as I've had my eye on some wonderfuls myself) 2. I honestly don't think Travis can be monogamous. I'm certain he wasn't w/me, although I don't dwell on it anymore, but my certainly was further solidified when his pattern of behavior continued w/ his next girlfriend, Lisa Andrews. When he finally admitted that they had been dating, I felt so guilty. I almost wanted to tell her, it seemed only fair, but by then had already broken up and he had moved on to MiMi. Besides, not only would telling her destroy our friendship (mine & his), but it would cause a lot of unnecessary drama & pain. And just because Travis acted like a schmuck when it came to how he treated his previous girlfriends, doesn't mean he's incapable of learning how to be better. It's just that I've yet to see evidence of it. But perhaps it will be different w/ MiMi.
One things for sure, I wouldn't want to be the "other girl" in that relationship, I couldn't handle the guilt. And these things don't necessarily discount all of his other amazing qualities. He's done more for me than I could ever count. He's helped me in every area of my life. I am indebted to him for all of the wonderful things he's done. He's just so dang hot & cold. Bi-polar even, it would seem. But I have a gazillion memories we've created that I will always value, just like the ones w/ Bobby, Matt, and Darryl. All unique. All special, all priceless
Anyway, one thing I do know is it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I'm saddened, yes, but it feels like a conclusion, like closure. The the final chapter was finally written, and the ending was bitter-sweet. He said on some level, we will always be friends, but we both agreed that it's better this way. It's true. And it's very much in alignment w/ the email I sent him a few days ago. He'll be so much better off this way spiritually & emotionally. And I'll start dating for real again soon. Not this casual fill-in-your-Friday-night stuff. I won't miss his teasing or his bi-polar tendencies to snap and yell and say things he ends up regretting, but I will miss his sense of humor. We still have his car to take care of, but he'll keep me posted on any new developments. He said if all else fails, then we'll just scrap it, but I would (the end)
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Tuesday 12:50 am-ish June 10, 2008
Dan Freeman just called me. I was excited to hear from him. I immediately began to say how I might be making a trip out there soon and he softly responded w/ yes, I think you're going to have to make a trip out here soon. Then he told me. It was about Travis. But he couldn't really tell me anything. He just said something was wrong. I don't know what's going on and I need some answers. I'm praying that there has been a mistake. I tried calling his phone. Nothing for the first time I've called, his voice mail box was full. For some reason Disneyland keeps flashing in my mind. At night. Maybe because that's the last time we were there. I called Brint Hiatt's number over & over. Nothing. I'm going crazy and I feel so helpless being all the way here in CA.
Tuesday 3 am June 10, 2008
This is horrendous. The most awful thing I've ever had to deal with. I am in total shock right now. It hasn't fully hit me. This can't really be real. This just can't be happening. I spoke w/ Bishop Layton. He confirmed that Travis is dead. What happened?!? Travis, what is this?
Wednesday 6-11-08
So I've been numb mostly. But last night was extremely hard. I broke down as I finally bought myself around to going to bed. It was 2:30 am. I wanted so badly to call Travis, but knowing he wouldn't answer was too much to bear. And knowing he wasn't calling me anytime soon was just killing me. I broke down as I climbed in bed, and cried and cried & cried until I fell asleep.
Thurs 6-12-08
It just feels like he hasn't called me in too long. I hear him singing, I hear him laugh.
Friday 6-13-08
Norman-Servery-Mums, or Mummerus (sp?) got her flowers today. I sent 20 white Irises. Travis always told me that like the name Iris for a girl. That & Hinckley, Regan, or Megan. I'll take Iris, thank you very much. He liked Ivan for a boy's name. If I ever have a son, I'll name him Alexander.
I miss Travis more then words can say. It's weird, I was getting so used to communicating less frequently w/him, finally building up other areas of my life, but his passing has bought up so many things, so many old feelings. It almost feels like I broke up w/ him again, and thus the separation, I don't know. I just don't know. This can't really be real...
Travis,
I have so much to thank you for. I'm grateful that I ceased the opportunity to do so on so many occasions, being aware that you were a "words of affirmation" kind of guy. Thank you for all you've done for me. Thank you for opening your home to me more times than I could count. "My refrigerator is you refrigerator"
Thank you for all of the time you called me up in the early evening and told me to go outside and look at the sunset.
Travis, this can't really be real. I know you hated that kind of thinking. After we broke up, I stopped wearing the CTR ring you gave me, but it's back on my finger now. I didn't have the slightest clue that when we met at the Rainforest Cafe that you'd have such a lasting and profound impact on my life. It seems fitting that we should meet @ the Rainforest Cafe, being the environmentally forward people that we are. You care so much about this planet, always encouraging us to take care of it, reminding us of its role in God's eternal plan.
Thank you for believing in my skills as a photographer and an artist.
Tue June 17, 2008
My little brother's b-day. I'm having yet another surreal experience sitting here on the floor of the family room of the Freeman's, w/a most unlikely combination of people: Dan Freeman, Tammy Kind, Aaron Dewey, Aaron Mortensen, Diana Lilly, Ash Lesbard (SP?) and another guy I don't know. What's more is we're all sitting here with Travis. Robb Report Magazines strewn (sp?) about the floor, thumbing through them. It was Dan's idea to do so. It's difficult to look at the same covers that I've gazed upon in the previous months while being @ his house. It brings me right back to his kitchen, where all of the mail sat on the island. This feels like I'm going to wake up and it will be one of those random dreams filled w/ random people and symbolism I could only attempt to interpret.
Tonight I went to the police station to give "elimination prints" The guy who took them is LDS, so is the main detective. I wore my BYU shirt and he asked me if I had been to the "Y" Proudly, and w/a tone of sentimentality, I said Travis gave me this shirt for Christmas. It makes me cry now, but I don't want to be dramatic, so I 've got to keep my composure, especially in front of these people. I write the word "Christmas" I used to write or text "X-mas" but Travis told me last year "don't write that, think of what you're omitting. He was referring to the word "Christ". Since then, I spell it all the way out.
I keep seeing superstition Mountain. It loomed like a beautiful giant on the horizon today as Aaron Dewey & I drove to the church, where I was scheduled to meet Bishop Layton of the Desert Ridge Ward. We had a really good heart to heart. He didn't judge me. Aaron told me that it would the right thing, and I'm glad I did it.
Travis once told me I would make a good missionary. I love Travis. I miss him. I just want one (the end)
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Tuesday 12:50 am-ish June 10, 2008
Dan Freeman just called me. I was excited to hear from him. I immediately began to say how I might be making a trip out there soon and he softly responded w/ yes, I think you're going to have to make a trip out here soon. Then he told me. It was about Travis. But he couldn't really tell me anything. He just said something was wrong. I don't know what's going on and I need some answers. I'm praying that there has been a mistake. I tried calling his phone. Nothing for the first time I've called, his voice mail box was full. For some reason Disneyland keeps flashing in my mind. At night. Maybe because that's the last time we were there. I called Brint Hiatt's number over & over. Nothing. I'm going crazy and I feel so helpless being all the way here in CA.
Tuesday 3 am June 10, 2008
This is horrendous. The most awful thing I've ever had to deal with. I am in total shock right now. It hasn't fully hit me. This can't really be real. This just can't be happening. I spoke w/ Bishop Layton. He confirmed that Travis is dead. What happened?!? Travis, what is this?
Wednesday 6-11-08
So I've been numb mostly. But last night was extremely hard. I broke down as I finally bought myself around to going to bed. It was 2:30 am. I wanted so badly to call Travis, but knowing he wouldn't answer was too much to bear. And knowing he wasn't calling me anytime soon was just killing me. I broke down as I climbed in bed, and cried and cried & cried until I fell asleep.
Thurs 6-12-08
It just feels like he hasn't called me in too long. I hear him singing, I hear him laugh.
Friday 6-13-08
Norman-Servery-Mums, or Mummerus (sp?) got her flowers today. I sent 20 white Irises. Travis always told me that like the name Iris for a girl. That & Hinckley, Regan, or Megan. I'll take Iris, thank you very much. He liked Ivan for a boy's name. If I ever have a son, I'll name him Alexander.
I miss Travis more then words can say. It's weird, I was getting so used to communicating less frequently w/him, finally building up other areas of my life, but his passing has bought up so many things, so many old feelings. It almost feels like I broke up w/ him again, and thus the separation, I don't know. I just don't know. This can't really be real...
Travis,
I have so much to thank you for. I'm grateful that I ceased the opportunity to do so on so many occasions, being aware that you were a "words of affirmation" kind of guy. Thank you for all you've done for me. Thank you for opening your home to me more times than I could count. "My refrigerator is you refrigerator"
Thank you for all of the time you called me up in the early evening and told me to go outside and look at the sunset.
Travis, this can't really be real. I know you hated that kind of thinking. After we broke up, I stopped wearing the CTR ring you gave me, but it's back on my finger now. I didn't have the slightest clue that when we met at the Rainforest Cafe that you'd have such a lasting and profound impact on my life. It seems fitting that we should meet @ the Rainforest Cafe, being the environmentally forward people that we are. You care so much about this planet, always encouraging us to take care of it, reminding us of its role in God's eternal plan.
Thank you for believing in my skills as a photographer and an artist.
Tue June 17, 2008
My little brother's b-day. I'm having yet another surreal experience sitting here on the floor of the family room of the Freeman's, w/a most unlikely combination of people: Dan Freeman, Tammy Kind, Aaron Dewey, Aaron Mortensen, Diana Lilly, Ash Lesbard (SP?) and another guy I don't know. What's more is we're all sitting here with Travis. Robb Report Magazines strewn (sp?) about the floor, thumbing through them. It was Dan's idea to do so. It's difficult to look at the same covers that I've gazed upon in the previous months while being @ his house. It brings me right back to his kitchen, where all of the mail sat on the island. This feels like I'm going to wake up and it will be one of those random dreams filled w/ random people and symbolism I could only attempt to interpret.
Tonight I went to the police station to give "elimination prints" The guy who took them is LDS, so is the main detective. I wore my BYU shirt and he asked me if I had been to the "Y" Proudly, and w/a tone of sentimentality, I said Travis gave me this shirt for Christmas. It makes me cry now, but I don't want to be dramatic, so I 've got to keep my composure, especially in front of these people. I write the word "Christmas" I used to write or text "X-mas" but Travis told me last year "don't write that, think of what you're omitting. He was referring to the word "Christ". Since then, I spell it all the way out.
I keep seeing superstition Mountain. It loomed like a beautiful giant on the horizon today as Aaron Dewey & I drove to the church, where I was scheduled to meet Bishop Layton of the Desert Ridge Ward. We had a really good heart to heart. He didn't judge me. Aaron told me that it would the right thing, and I'm glad I did it.
Travis once told me I would make a good missionary. I love Travis. I miss him. I just want one (the end)
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All of her diary entries are so fake. She made all that up to cover her tracks. What an evil creature she is.
ReplyDeleteI don't think they are fake. I think she was just that sick. This girl has deeply rooted mental problems.
DeleteThey aren't fake at all. Everything is genuine. Her murdering Travis is something that shocked her. I know she worked at great length to remove any acknowledgement of the act from her mind, as it is not something she can come to grip with after the fact. As to what lead her to do it in the first place? She was clearly in a state of temporary insanity, brought on from extreme emotional duress.
DeleteIf Travis weren't religious she and he probably would be happily married right now. But somehow he let some religion convince him sex was something to feel guilty about...
Anonymous- I hope you know that is a completely ridiculous comment.
DeleteAM SANDRA FROM CANADA, THANKS TO DR ONIHA WHO HELP ME BRING MY HUSBAND BACK, MY HUSBAND LEFT ME WITH THREE KIDS, FOR ANOTHER YOUNG GIRL, FOR OVER TWO YEARS, I TRIED ALL I COULD TO SETTLED OUR DIFFRENCES, BUT IT YIELDED NO RESULT, I WAS THE ONE TAKING CARE OF THE CHILDREN ALONE, UNTIL ONE DAY, I CAME IN CONTACT WITH SOME ARTICLES ONLINE, CONTAINING HOW DR ONIHA HAS HELP SO MANY LOVERS AND FAMILY REUNION AND REUNIT AGAIN, AND I DECIDED TO CONTACT HIM, AND HE CAST HIS SPELL ON MY HUSBAND, WITHIN FIVE DAYS, MY HUSBAND RAN BACK HOME, AND WAS BEGGING ME AND THE KIDS FOR FORGIVENESS, IN CASE YOU ARE PASSING THROUGH SIMILAR PROBLEMS, AND YOU WANTS TO CONTACT DR ONIHA, YOU CAN REACH HIM VIA HIS CONTACT NUMBER, ON CALL OR WHATSAP +2347089275769 OR EMAIL DRONIHASPELL@YAHOO.COM
DeleteI agree foob. It's scary knowing there are people this evil walking amongst us.
ReplyDeleteI am banking on justice for Travis (M1) and the jury comes back with the death penalty. I know these creatures are out here. I was stalked by one myself. "He" was very much like her and diagnosed with similar personality disorders. I want there to be one less on earth. I wish one of the guidelines would be the jury requesting her death posthaste due to her tearing down of his character, blatantly harming the rest of the family and her ability to be so calculated and cunning. It infuriates me to no end.
ReplyDeleteI don't think Jodi admits to learning that Mimi was going with Travis to Cancun on May 28. If I recall, all she says is as of May 28th, she knew he was taking someone else. She also says something about him taking a babysitter I believe.
ReplyDeleteThank you Poochman. When I get a minute, I will go back and relisten to double check.
DeleteI am confused over the sex tape recorded if she says her phone was stolen that had that on it then where did the recording come from in court? Did she record another one with him? Probably so she could have blackmail over him and future girlfriends. I believe this is what he found out about when he told he was taking another woman to Cancun she says wait a minute I've got this recording how about I share with her.....
ReplyDeleteShe said the phone recording was miraculously "found" a couple of years later in her grandfathers car! I agree with the blackmail idea too! And thanks to Justice Morbid for all this hard work! you make me laugh with your little comments.
DeleteGreat job with the timeline! Thanks!
ReplyDeleteSo you want a real nughty and guilty sex?, go with mormons!! xD, religious people are all fuck up.
ReplyDeleteHey. Here's some for u. Ja left mesa for good on April 4. The journals support it . on 4-3 ta wrote ja left And Ja wrote she was leaving on 4-3 as well. Then sent a goodbye email on 4-4. The ja wrote journal entry 4-6 which said "broke up ride back slept in truck past 2 nites sleeping at sis Julies house tonite. Suppors JA finally left 4-4.
ReplyDeleteOops 4got to add 4-3 ta said ja left AND CAME BACK
DeleteAM SANDRA FROM CANADA, THANKS TO DR ONIHA WHO HELP ME BRING MY HUSBAND BACK, MY HUSBAND LEFT ME WITH THREE KIDS, FOR ANOTHER YOUNG GIRL, FOR OVER TWO YEARS, I TRIED ALL I COULD TO SETTLED OUR DIFFRENCES, BUT IT YIELDED NO RESULT, I WAS THE ONE TAKING CARE OF THE CHILDREN ALONE, UNTIL ONE DAY, I CAME IN CONTACT WITH SOME ARTICLES ONLINE, CONTAINING HOW DR ONIHA HAS HELP SO MANY LOVERS AND FAMILY REUNION AND REUNIT AGAIN, AND I DECIDED TO CONTACT HIM, AND HE CAST HIS SPELL ON MY HUSBAND, WITHIN FIVE DAYS, MY HUSBAND RAN BACK HOME, AND WAS BEGGING ME AND THE KIDS FOR FORGIVENESS, IN CASE YOU ARE PASSING THROUGH SIMILAR PROBLEMS, AND YOU WANTS TO CONTACT DR ONIHA, YOU CAN REACH HIM VIA HIS CONTACT NUMBER, ON CALL OR WHATSAP +2347089275769 OR EMAIL DRONIHASPELL@YAHOO.COM
ReplyDeleteThanks for this timeline!!!
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